Tuesday, July 28, 2009

The Grass is Always Greener Until you Become Adults


Every time I sit down to think about blogging, I think about my cousin Katie. Katie is the most poetic and eloquent writer I have ever known. When I read what she writes, I feel like I fall into the deepest part of her soul. I feel like I can feel what she is feeling. She and I were born on the same day, in the same hospital, with the same doctor. This was quite an amazing experience for two little girls who would soon become best friends. Katie and I spent holidays together at grandmas house when we were children. I think Katie always envied me and I always envied Katie. Katie was the star soccer player, and I always wanted to be. I was the star basketball player, and Katie always wanted to be. Katie could (and still can) bring a room of strangers to tears with her piano and singing skills, and I can’t carry a tune in a bucket but I have always wanted to be musically talented. Right as Katie began to get the attention of the room, I would make someone laugh and steal that attention away. Katie always wanted to be the funny one, and I always wanted to be the talented one. As we grew older, we became better friends but we always thought we wanted what each other had. I guess life works that way. Katie was my idol, and I was hers.

As we became teenagers, we spent some time at each other’s houses in Cary and Atlanta. When we were not together, we were writing each other hand written letters or talking on the phone. Once we got into high school/college, we drifted apart, not with intention, but just naturally as friends sometime do. Katie and I became grown ups, and I think that is when we both remembered how influential and important we were to each other. We picked up right where we left off at 15 years old. I love Katie more than words can express. I envy her, but not in a jealous way. I envy her with pride. I am so proud of the woman she has become. I am proud of her talents and her strengths. I am proud of her determination and patience. I think she is a model for what a woman should. Katie is a picture of GRACE.

I think that Katie and I will both agree that we have been blessed with amazing and perfect lives. Katie is married to a wonderful man named Steve, and I married Blake who I loved way back when. Katie and Steve live in Ohio, and they made the decision to go on a journey to adopt from Russia. Their story has moved me. I would do anything in the world for Katie and Steve to be able to meet their little precious one they have desired and dreamt about for so long. I can’t wait until that day. Feel free to follow their journey with them at http://steveandkate.wordpress.com/. You will be able to see why I have so much pride in my cousin Katie. Now that we are grown and both blessed in so many ways, I see that I don’t want to be Katie and Katie doesn’t want to be me. We are just so happy to have each other just the way we are. The grass is always greener until you become adults, then you just become to the fertilizer that makes each other’s yard beautiful.

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